flailing in my kitchen v3.1

How can I be sad when I have breakfast, lunch, and dinner?
How can I be sad when I have
too much cabbage to fit in a pan?

A most exciting package

Guys, the day has finally come.

After 6 years (!!) of searching, I am finally able to eat mue pue ou nam糜配烏欖 - congee with black olives!

Three black olives in a saucer
LOOK AT THEM. hoh ngia好雅 - quite beautiful, right?

So I need to talk about these ou nam烏欖 - black olives. They're black and football shaped. They're very salty, but they don't taste anything like your black olive that you find on a pizza or a charcuterie board. And you have to get them whole, with the pit still inside.

Me holding up a single whole olive
One olive packs a lot of flavor!

Me holding up an olive that I took a bite of. You can see the pit.
I take a little bite of ou nam, and I eat it with a spoonful of mue

Back when I was little, you could easily find cans of ou nam at the Asian grocery store. But at some point, I guess they stopped shipping them to the US? When I asked my Soy Go細姑 - aunt (dad's youngest sister) about trying to find them back in 2022, she told me something like "Child! Don't waste your time! They don't sell them anymore!" BUT I KEPT LOOKING. Every time I went into an Asian grocery store, I'd look for them. Whenever strangers online posted about them, I'd respond and ask them where they got them. I basically never talked to strangers online, but I always made an exception for ou nam.

I heard a lot of crazy theories from people about why ou nam are so hard to find in the US. They're too salty and too unhealthy. They cause cancer. I don't know. The thing is, I knew they still existed somewhere. They were even featured on a Netflix documentary about Teochew food! See that? Olives were the very first episode.

But after six years of searching and not finding anything, I really thought I was going to have to travel to China just to get some ou nam. And then just a month ago, I visited my dad's family and I talked to my Soy Sim細嬸 - aunt (dad's youngest brother's wife), and she told me she's seen them at the market somewhere in California. "Why didn't you ask me?" 😅

She started searching on Weee! and she pulled up a page and showed it to me, and yeah, there it was, and they were able to deliver them to my apartment. I had never heard of Weee! before, but apparently they've existed since 2015.

So we placed an order, and it actually took over three weeks to get them delivered to me. I had honestly completely forgotten about it when a mysterious little box showed up in front of my door. I'm used to getting ou nam in a can, so I was surprised to see them in vacuum-sealed bags! Soy Go seems to think this is better though. I mean, it certainly seems a lot easier and safer to transfer these little bags than it would be to transfer cans or jars.

Five black olives in a vacuum sealed bag

Because they're so salty, they're usually eaten with mue糜 - porridge/congee. Plain mue. I know I've mentioned a few times already that I LOVED eating mue as a child, and even today, I think I could eat mue every day and not be sick of it.

It had been a while since I last made beh mue白糜 - plain ('white') congee, but the process is pretty simple. You just wash a cup of rice and add maybe 4-5 cups of water and boil that. Once it's boiling, lower the heat so it's at a simmer, and keep it cooking until it's at the consistency you like. I actually prefer my mue to be a little thicker and less jui jui水水 - watery.

An overhead shot of porridge, black olives, and cured meat

And you guys know I love lah bhah臘肉 - cured meat as well, right? When I last visited my mom's family, Gong公 - grandpa would cook mue and lah bhah and have that for lunch every day! (And you know I am more than happy to eat this for lunch every day) Lah bhah is typically made with pork belly, but he also prepares other meats in a similar way. Before I left, he made sure to give me some lah bhah to take home ❤️

Three pieces of cured meat that's been deep fried
I only cook a little bit each time, just enough for my meal

I've been having many meals of mue and ou nam and lah bhah for the past couple of weeks! I really don't ever get tired of it.

I feel like I want to try to have more of my favorite dishes from childhood. Because...can you believe ou nam is actually not my favorite thing to eat with mue? (Well, you'd know this already if you read my blog posts pretty closely) But that's a post for another day.

Three black olives in a saucer with some cured meat bits in the back


Homemade ice cream

Before I had even moved into my new apartment, one of my friends gifted me an ice cream maker as a housewarming present. I'll admit that when I saw it, my first reaction was momentary panic because I had not planned for an ice cream maker to sit in my new (not-so-spacious) kitchen. But after my dad built me some shelves, I was able to find a spot for it to live.

It's a very thoughtful gift! Ga lemice cream is my favorite dessert, and I eat it three times a day.

...okay, that's a slight exaggeration, but I do eat ice cream pretty much every day. I don't think I eat that much of it, but it's nice to have as my breakfast, lunch, and dinner dessert.

Homemade vanilla ice cream in a small bowl
I donated my ice cream scooper because I never used it. Now I kind of wish I had it to make my ice cream look prettier

I figured I should start with the most basic ice cream recipe, the "Simple Vanilla Ice Cream" that was listed in the manual. It was pretty easy to make and only had four ingredients: milk, heavy cream, sugar, and vanilla. I let it churn for about 25 minutes, and it thickened a bit and it was kinda cool!

So this Cuisinart ice cream maker claims to be able to make ice cream ✨ in under 30 minutes ✨ Except that's a LIE. First, you need to make sure the ice cream bowl has been sitting in the freezer for 24 hours. And even if you discount that time, you still need to freeze it for several hours after it's done churning in order for it to have a good ice cream consistency.

But that's okay. I'm living life slowly these days so I can wait a whole day for some ice cream. So after it was done churning, I tried a little spoonful and I put it in the freezer until the next morning. It tasted like vanilla ice cream! I didn't love the texture, but I thought it was a success.

You know what makes it even better, though? Oreos. I LOVE oreos in my ice cream. I bought a small pack of them and I crushed one up and mixed it in (just like Cold Stone!). I should crush up an oreo every time I scoop myself a bowl of ice cream.

Homemade vanilla ice cream topped with crushed oreos
This is actually my friend's bowl of ice cream. I would never use such a large bowl for dessert

So I decided that I would try making cookies 'n cream next. And it's basically the same as making vanilla, I just add crushed oreos to the churner for the last five minutes of it. I only used four oreos (because I had an individually wrapped snack pack), and I think it could have used one more. Recipes online will typically tell you to use a knife to chop the oreo into chunks, but I prefer to just put it in a plastic bag and smash it with something heavy enough.

I lied in this video! I actually only let it churn for twenty minutes! I don't think it really made a difference in the texture of the ice cream though. I enjoyed it, but I'll definitely want to switch up the recipe next time. I really want to try and create a creamier texture, and I think I want to try incorporating some egg yolk next!

Homemade cookies and cream ice cream, in a little bowl, piled high above the top of the bowl
Yes, I scooped extra for the sake of taking a photo. I put half of it back in the container before eating


New apartment

I had been living in the same apartment since before the start of this food blog, and that was far far far too long for me, but finding a new apartment is a lot of work and I was kind of picky.

But I finally did it! I found a new place and I moved! My new place is a little bigger, though it came with much less storage and countertop space in the kitchen. My dad and my cousin helped me move in, and as part of that, my dad also built me some shelves to make my kitchen more usable.

Some slices of some  BBQ chicken pizza that I made, and my dad is eating it in the background
Yes, I still use a playing card table as my "dining room" table

For most of the week and a half that my dad and cousin were visiting, we were eating food that my aunt packed for us. She packed so much food, but they were also here for a bit longer than we expected, so I ended up needing to make a few meals for them myself. On the very last day, I made some BBQ pulled pork pizza using some leftover odds n ends from a taco night earlier that week. As I was adding the toppings to my pizza dough, my cousin exclaimed "Is that...barbecue sauce? 😯"

I don't know why he was so shocked, because of course it's barbecue sauce! BBQ is the best pizza sauce.

I was honestly pretty impressed with myself for pulling that together so quickly, and I think my dad and cousin were impressed too.

Two tacos with chicken and fajita veggies, along with an iced coffee and some lime wedges
Huh, iced coffee. Was I having tacos for breakfast?

Unfortunately I didn't get any photos of the taco spread, but because I only used half a packet of fajita seasoning, I used the rest in some chicken fajitas later that week. I'm a little further from the Giant Eagle now, but there is a tiny grocery store not too far away, and it's good for buying individual pieces of produce. I bought two bell peppers and a lime for these fajitas.

Some cooked turkey slices, scrambled eggs, and half a bagel with veggie cream cheese
This is definitely breakfast!

I also checked out a local bagel shop that apparently sometimes has super long lines. The first time I tried to go there, they were already sold out for the day! But I tried again, and I got there earlier this time. I think I just got a plain bagel with some veggie cream cheese. This place is all about customizing your cream cheese. You choose your mix-ins, things like scallions or broccoli or bacon or cheese, and then the bagel person puts your cream cheese and extra stuff in a bowl and mixes it all up. It's like Cold Stone, but for cream cheese.

Anyway, I was so overwhelmed by all the options that I just chose a pre-designed cream cheese mix. The bagel and cream cheese were...fine. Didn't seem worth the $6 price tag 😨

I am not a very heavy-cream-cheese-on-bagel kind of person, which means these bagel places always give me twice as much cream cheese as I want for one bagel. But I know this, so I ended up getting my cream cheese on the side, and I used the other half of it to make pasta.

Spinach and tomato pasta
Food always looks good if you zoom in close enough

I was definitely a little worn out from my move-in week, so I wanted to just make some easy meals after that. And pasta's pretty easy. In fact, I made pasta twice that week!

Baked ravioli sitting on a windowsill, with a spoon taking a piece out of it
I've found that the best place to take food photos in my new apartment is on the kitchen windowsill

I usually like to make baked ziti, but this baked ravioli is like an easier version of that. And even though I usually hate leftover pasta, there's something about these baked, really cheesy pastas that can withstand the sitting and reheating process, so I happily ate leftovers of this.

Of course, because I've got a new kitchen, that means I have to get used to all of my new-to-me appliances and that's going to make things a little harder at first. The oven was pretty simple--so far that works just as expected. But I'm finding that my stove gets way hotter than I expect it to. I have electric coils now, and I don't know anything about the science of how that heats up the food differently from the flat top stove, but I cannot be cooking everything at a 7 now.

Yellow rice with chicken and brussels sprouts
Windowsill again!

I've made this yellow rice dish so many times in the past, so I was expecting it to be chill, but I think I set the stove heat too high and I made a bit of a splattery mess. I quickly cleaned my stovetop up, but it must have been a little bit later (and darker) in the day because the next day I looked above my (white) stovetop and it was yellow, and I tried to wipe it off, and it would not come off 😱

I looked up how to remove turmeric stains on the internet and I found so many different suggestions on reddit: dish soap, bleach, vinegar, baking soda, oil, magic eraser, sunlight, but the top rated comment said "Enjoy your yellow stove!"

I tried using a magic eraser and I just scrubbed as hard as I could. Some of the yellow did come off, and now the surface is just a very pale yellow and I'll probably forget about it in the future. I wonder how much yellow stain had coated my old stove that I just didn't notice because it was black.

This was a pretty minor incident though. Besides that, I've already had a few instances where I cooked something and it started smoking A LOT, and then I've triggered the smoke alarm 🥵

A really blurry photo of a burger I made
The camera was so dirty that my phone couldn't even recognize it was dirty to tell me to clean my lens

Remember when I said that I shouldn't use pre-made frozen burger patties? Well, I didn't listen to past self, and for some reason I thought that Aldi's smash burgers would be an easy dinner. Absolutely not. What. a. mess. Never ever ever use those frozen burger patties when I'm cooking burgers on the stove.

A less blurry photo of a burger and fries
Look at me being all fancy including a ketchup container that I took from Five Guys

Well, the kitchen only really came with the oven, stove, and a fridge, so I had to bring my own microwave. My dad ended up buying me a cute, compact microwave from Walmart, and while my stove gets way too hot, my microwave only uses 700 watts of power! My old microwave was at least 1000 watts, and I had used it so many times to perfect my cookie-in-a-mug and my brownie-in-a-mug, and now I've got to start all over again to figure out the right amount time to cook these desserts.

A chocolate chip cookie in a very large mug
It's a good thing I really like chocolate chip cookies

I've made four chocolate chip cookies in this mug and in this tiny microwave so far, and I'm still tweaking things. I first tried 60 seconds, and then I added 10 extra seconds (shouldn't have added that extra 10), and then I tried 70 seconds, and then I tried 67 seconds 🫲🤪🫱, and then I tried 60 seconds by itself, and somehow this always ends up both too undercooked and overcooked at the same time.

But I think I've rambled on enough for one post. Thanks for reading, and maybe I'll be cooking something more exciting in my next post!


"Butter" "Chicken"

There are no eggs in this post, because I made something vegan. Like actually vegan, not vegetarian with a side of bacon, not vegan but I threw real cheese on top, 100% vegan. We were throwing a birthday party for one of the guys in the dance game community, and he's vegan so I had to make sure to not take any shortcuts here. I made some vegan "butter chicken", which contained no butter and no chicken.

A sign that says "Butter chicken: vegan and nut free!" with my butter tofu behind it
I really just wanted to make this sign

In fact, I even omitted the cashews from this recipe just in case anyone had a nut allergy, and I put all the cilantro in a bowl on the side to not ruin the dish for the cilantro-tastes-like-soap people. Unfortunately I was too lazy to make vegan naan, and the grocery stores don't really sell that, but I did buy some of that seedy bread that I like from Aldi.

This ended up being a huge hit, and it was all gone shortly after I got to the party. And I barely got to eat any! So I decided that I wanted to make another batch. I also thought that one block of tofu was not nearly enough for the amount of sauce in this dish, so I doubled it for my second batch.

Cubed, sauced, and baked tofu, all sitting on a baking tray
This was a lot of work to individually place each piece of tofu on the pan

I love tofu, especially in curry. I used to follow curry recipes and replace tofu with chicken, now I'm replacing chicken with tofu!

A lot of the recipes I use will tell me to press the tofu to remove excess moisture, but I'm getting kind of tired of pressing it, and I decided to try something different here. I first cut up the tofu into cubes and I let that sit in a bowl of salted water for a while. When I'm ready to use them, I drain the water and pat the tofu dry a little. I'm certainly getting more flavorful tofu this way, and it seems to dry out the tofu just as well as pressing.

Some cooked butter tofu in a pot

Okay, I didn't actually make this completely vegan for the second batch. It is really hard to find a single serving container of non-dairy yogurt. I bought coconut yogurt for my first batch, but I had to trek all the way to Whole Foods and spend over $2 for it. I just bought plain Chobani Greek yogurt for the second batch.

Some butter tofu, with some extra tofu pieces thrown on top, as well as some cilantro
The key to an aesthetic food photo is to not mix everything yet

I may have had a little too much food for this second batch because I felt like I had to eat 10 meals of it just to get through it all. But it was very good! At this point I've made this dish a bunch of times, so it's basically one of my go-tos.


My favorite instant noodles

Continuing on the egg train! 🪺 🥚 🍳

So my little sister visited me in May, and around that time we like to celebrate a little holiday we made up where we exchange gifts and tell each other "Happy not-a-Mother's day!" I gave her some Pokémon cards, and she gave me a few packs of my absolute favorite MAMA instant noodles with gue diao粿條 - rice noodles.

Several packs of Mama flat rice noodles in clear soup
And a very belated Happy Mother's Day to all the actual mothers out there

My dad would always keep these stocked in his apartment, and when I went off to college he sent me a huge box full of them to keep in my dorm room. They were my go-to noodles, and I would always eat them with an egg. As an adult, I don't eat instant noodles too often, but there was one time last year that I thought, I could really go for some Mama mi.

I know it's not actually mi麵 - egg noodles, I just find it rolls off the tongue to say Mama mi

Unfortunately, most Asian grocery stores do NOT stock these! I mean they're not impossible to find like ou nam烏欖 - Chinese black olives, but at least 9 out of 10 Asian stores aren't going to have them. I would know. I look for them every time I'm in an Asian store.

Holding some flat rice noodles with chopsticks
I was reading Boring Asian Female by Canwen Xu. That book is UNHINGED

Sometimes I find a similar instant noodle with clear broth, but it has the thin noodles instead. It's the same flavor, so it tastes good, but man, it does not hit the same as the wide, flat noodles.

The noodles come with a seasoning packet, an oil packet, and a spicy packet. Now when I eat something like Buldak, I always use all of the spicy sauce, because I gotta have the full spice-inducing experience. With these Mama noodles, I don't use any of the spicy stuff. I'm not trying to struggle here.

I mostly follow the package instructions. I boil about 1.5 cups of water, and I throw the noodles in and stir them around until they're soft. You do want to give them a good stir because I find that it's very easy for rice noodles to stick to each other. Then I crack in my egg and do some more stirring, and finally I add the oil and seasoning and turn off the heat.

An overhead shot of the bowl of noodles, topped with scallions, along with a cup of iced coffee next to it
Yes, noodle soup is a breakfast food!

If I have a scallion in my fridge, I usually cut that up and throw it on top as well, because it gives me the illusion that I'm making this healthier and because it makes the dish look prettier. And then I eat this one spoonful at a time, making sure to put a noodle, some egg, some scallion, and some soup, all in each bite. So comforting and so good.


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